Dear Sarah …
At the time you felt worthless, that you had failed and let people down. In a few months you will understand that this was far from the truth and in a few years you will recognise that this moment was a turning point in your life which led you in a new direction, to new challenges and opportunities, to new friends and ultimately a better and more productive place, all of which you would never have experienced if you’d listened to that negative voice.
You are surrounded by people who listen and who support you no matter what. Talking to them and your GP will help, its amazing the people who care. The ones who don’t and who caused much of the drama you are currently experiencing, they aren’t worth it, they don’t matter. This was not your fault, but its OK to take it that hard, it means you cared. However, you need to care about you now and focus on that.
In the future you will be there for others and your own experience will help them know they are not alone. You will fight the stigma, you may not effect the change you want but you will get people talking. That in itself is a huge achievement.
You won’t always succeed at everything, learning to accept that is the hardest lesson you face, embrace the words below and carry on…
“Ever tried. Ever failed. No matter. Try again. Fail again. Fail Better.” – Samuel Beckett, Worstward Ho
There’s so much more to come … I want you to be there to see it.